haiz.. now i am behavin like a kid again... suddenly feel so lonely..feel so terrible now.. oso duno y.. haha.. maybe i luv to cry? i have cried 4 a yr le.. y jus i cant stop cryin? will my tears ever dry up? will i cry till i blind? haiz.. i oso dunno..
is this my life? my life full of sorrows.. nobody knows my real feelings.. am i really eva? i oso dunno... i feel that 4 this whole yr i am not behavin like myself.. easily angry and pek chek.. is this the real me? i oso duno.. i really hate this kind of life..
y mus god torture me this way? hav i really done somethin very bad my previous life? i dunno..
wen will i eva find my real self? till the day i ly on my death bed? maybe..
sometimes i really dun feel like livin anymore.. there is no meanin in life.. but i always tell myself that.. god treat me this way is to help strengthen the real me.. god wan to nurture me to be a better person..
will there be some1 waitin 4 me down the long pathway?
i hope so..
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lonely..
Sunday, November 30, 2003
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about me
There is something within meThat is strong enough To keep me from toppling Over the edge of Sanity, Over the ledge of frustration Or over the hedge of All-out foolishness. It leads me to prayer When I would otherwise Break. There is something in my make-up Or my bringing up Or just the way I look up That straightens my back And bows my head. It becomes the focus of my meditation. The sentiment in my supplication, The reason for my transformation. That thing inside me Has me choosing light Though darkness covers all. It wells up like ocean waves Come to drown those who Think they deserve to push me back Hold me down or Steal my joy. I have a spiritual strength that Grows deeper and speaks louder as I get to know More about who I am. Leaves 2010
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