a gd frenz birthday arrivin soon.. but like no one bothers.. duno y oso.. well.. me myself oso abit pek check.. duno y oso.. maybe due to some miscommunications.. but somehow i feel tat maybe i am really such a poor communicator? or a lousy fren? am i realy tat lousy?? i am not carin enough?

a close fren actually feels tat i always think my life is perfect.. well.. nobodys life is perfect. if he think my life is so perfect as i think i may not be strugglin wit my life le.. alot of things i shld do and shld not do is not up to me.. well.. if u cant accept who i am... den i am not eva...

gd frenz are diftin further and further.. haizz duno y too... one always bz wit work duno y always dun have time to meet me.. miss appointments as often as drinkin water.. am i not a fren who is worth meeting? not worth even a msg??

another one? bz wit own frenz.. maybe i am not her type? not tat i always bz wit bf but no one bothers to ask me out~ well.. last min date? hard to compromise wit that coz i always have plan 4 the day.. dun like aimless days..

maybe i am not worth to be a fren? sometimes ppl tell me tat i am carin, patient and prob solver? am i? i dun think so...

am i a loser in life.. ?


ps: dun mean to hit anyone but jus wan to pour out my feelings.. jus wan to let u guys know i treasure friendship.. if u treasure me i will treasure u double~ i wan friendship to last not 4 a day, a mth, a yr but 4eva...